Quiet evening watching the sunset, reflecting on mistakes, lately which involve a) getting offended too easily, something I’m quite critical of in others, and b) hitting send when I took something someone said the wrong way.
My facebook profile is supposedly set to private. I follow about 80 or so people. But sometimes I interact with others who have public profiles, and that’s when things usually go horribly wrong. I probably should only follow other people who have their profiles set to private.
Anyway, I’m not exactly sure what I said, when my irrational outrage trigger tripped, the post is no longer visible to me. But I know I messed up big time.
So, I want to thank you, my friend, if I may still call you that, for the many laughs we had together, before I smucked it all up, and created a likely irreversible separation of our paths. I always counted myself incredulously fortunate that you took the time to talk to me, to like my whimsical, nonsensical posts. I can’t tell you how much silly giggling was occurring on my side of our interactions, and I’ll miss that terribly, but, hey, I know I crossed a line, and I can’t blame you for keeping your distance.
Edit: I just noticed that a facebook explanation I had typed up was set to “Custom”, meaning that only one person, and not the person who I felt particularly deserves an explanation and apology did not see it. While I’m still pretty embarrassed by the whole affair, I don’t feel like making that full facebook post public. But there is one part of that explanation that is at the core of why I reacted the way I did: It appeared to me that a stranger was posting somewhat personal information about me. With hindsight, it was just typical light-hearted teasing of the kind a grown up would’ve handled with a snarky retort.
“…it turns out it was an an accidental autocorrect comment that triggered my reaction. I still remember staring at it, thinking “how does this person know this about me?”, and once that switch got flipped…”